Tak payah nak cerita inspiring others as in org luar but others here meaning : our kids.
Ever since im back to work, selalu ada perasaan guilty, lagi-lagi bila work from home, ada meeting. Susah nak borak dgn nasya and nasya borak dgn aku. Sbb nak kene berckp dgn stakeholders. So, oneday masa tgk citer kegemaran iaitu Greys Anatomy, masa Meredith nak gi keje ada surgery, dia pass Zola kat Torres, then Torres ckp "its ok, its good for Zola sees you going to work"
So masa tu terus hilang segala guilty. Sebab aku nak nasya tau to earn something - money, satisfaction, career etc, ada few cara which one of it is working outside the house. And bila fikir balik, bagus gak la dia nampak aku kerjakuat so bila beli brg aku selalu gak pesan, this is because i worked hard. I worked hard, tak smart lagi sebab keje aku ni keje kene worked hard. Mentally tortured rasa kadang-kadang.
And, sama jugak the other way round. Bila kita sedih hantar anak kita pegi sekolah , which is, kdg2 fikir ala kan boleh homeschool. Tapi komitmen homeschool sangatlah tinggi. Tak semua mom at home can homeschool anak. So treasure what I have now, appreciate the moment. Each step aku gi keje, fikir ni cari rezeki, anak gi sekolah , cari ilmu & belajar berkwn.
Both earn smthing at the end..insyaAllah mestilah nak yg terbaik kan? Tu yg kdg2 bila lookback, aku selalu fikir, apa yg dah aku ajar nasya last year. And to sit back in her shoe, apa yg dia "nampak" aku for the past one year? Sebab aku masa kecik bila fikir balik now, and now, aku fikir, aku nampak mak aku keje shift, dia bleh beli mcm2 dia suka, walaupun tak banyak sikit, still cook at home. Nampak she worked hard and balance. Walaupun la kerja aku ni takleh nak compare, tapi tak banyak sikit la kan nak amik the best of it.
So mlm tadi dia ckp - ibu work je, and ibu garang masa ajar ngaji. So, thats why this year resolutionnya is to be balanced and switch dr aku ajar ngaji yg nak berderai air mata, suruh ayah dia plak. Sabar bapaknye tinggi sikit. Balance supaya aku boleh worked hard and at the same time, ada lah something yg aku develop in her. Seriously, aku still rasa puas dapat ajar dia baca at young age. Sebab semua benda dah mudah skrg, sbb dia leh absorb and baca sendiri tanpa perlu suruh and showed apa nak suruh baca.
And im still thinking what should i develop her skills this year. We maybe looking at language and martial art skills. Tgkla rezeki mcmna.
Ever since im back to work, selalu ada perasaan guilty, lagi-lagi bila work from home, ada meeting. Susah nak borak dgn nasya and nasya borak dgn aku. Sbb nak kene berckp dgn stakeholders. So, oneday masa tgk citer kegemaran iaitu Greys Anatomy, masa Meredith nak gi keje ada surgery, dia pass Zola kat Torres, then Torres ckp "its ok, its good for Zola sees you going to work"
So masa tu terus hilang segala guilty. Sebab aku nak nasya tau to earn something - money, satisfaction, career etc, ada few cara which one of it is working outside the house. And bila fikir balik, bagus gak la dia nampak aku kerjakuat so bila beli brg aku selalu gak pesan, this is because i worked hard. I worked hard, tak smart lagi sebab keje aku ni keje kene worked hard. Mentally tortured rasa kadang-kadang.
And, sama jugak the other way round. Bila kita sedih hantar anak kita pegi sekolah , which is, kdg2 fikir ala kan boleh homeschool. Tapi komitmen homeschool sangatlah tinggi. Tak semua mom at home can homeschool anak. So treasure what I have now, appreciate the moment. Each step aku gi keje, fikir ni cari rezeki, anak gi sekolah , cari ilmu & belajar berkwn.
Both earn smthing at the end..insyaAllah mestilah nak yg terbaik kan? Tu yg kdg2 bila lookback, aku selalu fikir, apa yg dah aku ajar nasya last year. And to sit back in her shoe, apa yg dia "nampak" aku for the past one year? Sebab aku masa kecik bila fikir balik now, and now, aku fikir, aku nampak mak aku keje shift, dia bleh beli mcm2 dia suka, walaupun tak banyak sikit, still cook at home. Nampak she worked hard and balance. Walaupun la kerja aku ni takleh nak compare, tapi tak banyak sikit la kan nak amik the best of it.
So mlm tadi dia ckp - ibu work je, and ibu garang masa ajar ngaji. So, thats why this year resolutionnya is to be balanced and switch dr aku ajar ngaji yg nak berderai air mata, suruh ayah dia plak. Sabar bapaknye tinggi sikit. Balance supaya aku boleh worked hard and at the same time, ada lah something yg aku develop in her. Seriously, aku still rasa puas dapat ajar dia baca at young age. Sebab semua benda dah mudah skrg, sbb dia leh absorb and baca sendiri tanpa perlu suruh and showed apa nak suruh baca.
And im still thinking what should i develop her skills this year. We maybe looking at language and martial art skills. Tgkla rezeki mcmna.
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